Tonight she asked me if I still felt the same about her, with me being away and all. Yeah, there is a part of me that wishes I didn’t feel the same way, that the feelings could shake off and I could go back to a normal life, with my husband and dogs and avoid the disruption. But, the truth is, I can’t get her out of my head and I like her more and more everyday. Every-time she sends me a message or a picture of herself, I am blown away by how smart and pretty she is. I keep praying and handing it over to God, open to the idea that things could change if He wants them to, but they aren’t changing. I just want to hold her and touch her even more.